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Happy Birthday, Mom.

Untitled Design (2)My mother was born on June, 30th in 1968. Today she would have been 49 years old. Her name was Susan Devon Calhoun and she was beautiful, goofy, strong, independent, and kind. Her long, curly, dark hair was the definition of “hair envy”. I used to love brushing through it when I was younger, in hopes my hair would be just like hers when I got older. My brother and I were her only two children. I have been wanting to write more about my childhood, but it is very difficult to put into words, much like this. My mother had survived sexual abuse, physical abuse, and some of the worst forms of domestic violence. She was a fighter to say the least and one of the strongest women I have known. My mother struggled with drug addiction and¬†alcohol abuse, but in the end, it was Congestive Heart Failure, liver cancer, and AIDS that ended her life. downloadWhen my mother was diagnosed with AIDS it was hard for me to understand. Like most, I wasn’t educated enough to understand the disease. For the longest I thought she got the disease from unsafe sex, but it was from sharing needles while using heroin.¬† My mother passed away in Kalamazoo on August 10th, 2006. There isn’t a day that goes by when I don’t think about her. I know she would be very proud of my brother and I. My heart is heavy and I don’t feel like pouring it all out, so I will end with this;

If roses grow in Heaven Lord,

please pick a bunch for me.

Place them in my mother’s arms

and tell her they’re from me.

Tell her that I love her and miss her,

and when she turns to smile,

Place a kiss upon her cheek

and hold her for awhile

Because remembering her is easy,

I do it every day.

But there’s an ache within my heart

that will never go away.

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Happy Birthday, I Love You Mom.

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  1. She was a beautiful person.Im happy that she was my niece. I know that she would have been so happy knowing that her kids are happy and proud to have been a grandmother to her three grandsons

  2. Your Mother was a funny, sweet, goofy, charming woman, that got dealt an absolutely horrible hand in her life….but there were two bright spots in her life that gave her the strenth and desire to push forth and do the best she could, and that was you Deanna and your brother Eric. She loved you two deeply with all her heart, just know that the angel she has become still does & is deeply proud of both of you as am I, I’m just so sorry that her life was cut so short, but her energy is around you both and her legacy lives on through you both and your beautitful children. I love you both deeply as well and will be present for either of you if you ever NEED anything. Your Mother is celebrating the two of you and watching over you all the time. Happy Birthday Susie, You made the most amazing children, what a gift they have been to so many.

  3. Your Mother was a funny, sweet, goofy, charming woman, that got dealt an absolutely horrible hand in her life….but there were two bright spots in her life that gave her the strenth and desire to push forth and do the best she could, and that was you Deanna and your brother Eric. She loved you two deeply with all her heart, just know that the angel she has become still does & is deeply proud of both of you as am I, I’m just so sorry that her life was cut so short, but her energy is around you both and her legacy lives on through you both and your beautitful children. I love you both deeply as well and will be present for either of you if you ever NEED anything. Your Mother is celebrating the two of you and watching over you all the time. Happy Birthday Susie, You made the most amazing children, what a gift they have been to so many.

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